This has been a challenging few days. Sorry (to myself more than any potential readers) for not posting and focusing on my graitude during a difficult weekend. It would have helped I am sure.
Thank you God for never leaving us alone, and knowing our pain, and all the underlying reasons for it.
Thank you God for loving me, even when I feel unlovable, you remind me that I am loved.
Thank you God for J, my baby boy, he is so in tune and so empathetic, it makes me sad for him in some ways, as he feels what I feel, and that is hard for such a little guy, as he has no idea why his mama is sad. Yet he is so loving, and even when feeling sad for me, he tries to make me smile. He is a blessing that I do not deserve, and that deserves better than my sorrow. Thank you God for giving me the responsibility of raising him and helping him see the peace through the pain. He is only 4 but he is an old soul, and a powerful one. And I am honored to be his mother, and he makes me need and want to be a better and stronger person,and for that I AM GRATEFUL. He is my Joy. And I want to bring HIM joy, not sorrow.
Thank you God for G, my eldest son, my challenge, my reflection of the need to be a better person. He shows me where I need to grow, and what the limits of my patience are. He reminds me that to love we do not need to be loved in return. He is a gift, a challenge, and a wonder all rolled into one.
Thank you for the funds to do what I need to this week, and the coming funds to meet all of my obligations
Thank you for good food to eat and clean water to drink
Thank you for the ability to reach out to doctors and professionals as needed to helpm us all lead healthier lives.
Thank you for the lack of snow in GF, even though we are still surrounded by mountains of snow at home, at least I can look out my window here and see bare ground, and robins, and squirrels--thank you for the coming spring.